Even as a little child, I can remember feeling guilty. Guilty about not doing the “right” thing when I had already been told, or guilty for forgetting something. Sometimes I felt guilty when I noticed that I had more cool toys or fun holidays than some of the other kids, or I would start to blame myself if I forgot someone’s birthday or didn’t get the best marks in class. As I got older, this guilt followed me when I saw people who were not as accomplished as I was,
Mornings for me used to be hitting the snooze button and trying to stay in bed as long as possible, fantasising about how life could’ve been. That was way easier than facing the day. I just wanted to escape the monotony of getting up, going to work, going home, watching TV and going to bed.
I remember there being certain moments in my life that I could’ve made a change and I didn’t.
Do you find that you have those little pangs of guilt every now and again, like when you forget somebody’s name? Somebody introduces themselves, you have a conversation with them and then at the end of the night, you totally forget their name. They say goodbye and say your name and your left floundering and feeling terrible.
Do you say to yourself that you are terrible at remembering names? What about when you’ve forgotten a birthday or an anniversary,